Absinthe

It’s..uumm… morning.. i mean, 2:29 am in the morning and here i am with my eyes wide open… i’m gonna get up at 5:00 and yeah, 2 hours or rest sucks big time.

duty tomorrow at the tearoom!!!!!!!!! aja!

Dati-rati naghahanap ako ng mga bagay na pwedeng gawin para lang malimutan ang mga bagay na dapat ko nang kalimutan. Dati pampalipas oras lang naman ang gusto ko, ngayon, permanente na ang hinahanap ko. Gusto ko na talagang makalimutan yung isang bagay na matagal nang gumugulo sa isip ko. Kung anuman yun, malamang onti lang ang nakakaalam nun. Yung mga taong uber close lang sa akin at yung mga taong madalas kong makasama. Buti na lang, sinagot ni Lord ang panalangin ko. Salamat sa PFPD na ‘to, di ko napapansin ang paglipas ng oras at kahit sa isang araw, mas malaki na ang oras na hindi ko na siya naaalala. Though oo, aaminin ko, mga mga pagkakataong nalulungkot ako.  Pero , suddenly, narerealize ko na ito na ang buhay ko. Kailangan kong mabuhay sa kasalukuyan at hindi sa nakaraan. Dude, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko, "remember?!? may mga pangarap ka pa sa buhay mo at kailangan mong kumilos ngayon pa lang". Pag naiisip ko talaga yun, nabubuhayan ako ng loob. Yun kasi ang tumutulak sa akin para magmove-on. Kahit ano para sa pamilya ko gagawin ko. Kaya kong kalimutan ang lahat ng nakaraan ko at kahit ang isang  bagay na mahalaga sa akin para lang sa pamilya ko. Sorry kung nagiging selfish man ako sa ibang tao pero pamilya ko ang buhay ko ngayon. OO sa ngayon.. pero sa future, ewan ko.. malamang may madadagdag.

Iniisip ko nga madalas eh, ngayon, naghihirap ako sa trabaho, sa aral… after 5 years saan na kaya ako?? Lahat kaya magpepay-off?? Gusto kong maging successful kung un lang din naman ang pag-uusapan kaya nga lahat ginagawa ko.

Pero…. umiiyak ako madalas kasi naman ang babaw ng luha ko. Ginagawa ko ang lahat pero wala naman sa tabi ko yung mga espesyal na tao para pagkwentuhan ng mga nangyayari sa akin.. Wala man lang "ganito ung nangyari sa akin ngayong araw…, masaya ako kasi…, gusto ko naseshare ko yung kung anong meron ako…. " Nakakausap ko naman si mama. Nakikita ko pa nga siya sa cam pero iba pa rin yung nakakasama ko siya. Hindi tulad nung dati.

Sa totoo lang, umiiyak ako ngayon.. Hindi pagiging plastic to. Nalulungkot talaga ako. Napakaiyakin ko. Nakakaasar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wala akong magawa kundi aliwin ang sarili ko. Kahit man lang sa 8 hours na straight kong trabaho, nakakalimutan ko naman lahat ng to noh. Kahit na pagod na pagod ako nakatayo buong araw, at least, less burden sa isip at puso. At least sa work, napipilitan akong ngumiti kahit deep inside nalulungkot ako.

Narerealize kong kailangan kong maging matatag kahit mag-isa lang akong namamangka. Hindi naman ibig sabihin nun mag-isa ko ring haharapin ang problema. Alam kong andito lang si God sa tabi ko. Alam kong di niya ako pinababayaan. Ngayon, narerealize kong hindi na rin ako bata. Though nasa akin pa rin yung nature ng pagiging isip-bata, I make it to a point na hangga’t maaari I should act maturely. I am already 18 years old and in a matter of 3 months, another year would be added to my advancing life. I should act appropriately. Given different circumstances naman kasi, mas nakikilala ko pa ang sarili ko and I think that’s the most important thing to feel when the day ends.

I planned to write my 3rd-day experience in PFPD but my echoing heartache sentiments won over it so I ended up stating my rants. Gosh, for the nth time I’m telling you guys same sentiments over and over again but i can’t do anything about it. I need to let this out or else I’ll blow up. Sorry… so sorry if I act this way.

Perhaps, I’ll just tell you my jollibee experience after I finish this program but quite sure is, I’m enjoying it. *thumbs up*

Oh, Oh
I’m not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that it’s over
What else could it be?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it’s different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can’t be with you
Cause I’m scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be

Kahit na wala na akong oras sa ibang mga bagay, kahit na sobrang busy
ko na sa skul, sa work, sa org, sa lahat…. may mga moments talaga na
napapatahimik ako sabay malulungkot. Naiisip ko lang, kahit na
tuluy-tuloy ang takbo ng buhay ko, kahit na nagagawa ko yung mga bagay
na makakatulong sa akin maabot yung goals ko, may kulang. Hindi pa rin
buo ang buhay ko. Nalulungkot ako, sa totoo lang, kasi ang dami kong
taong naaalala, naiisip at namimiss. Oo namimiss… Kahit
na kasama ko nga sa bahay sina papa, at yung dalawa kong kapatid, hindi
ko naman sila madalas makita! Aalis ako ng 6:00 ng umaga tapos uuwi ako
ng 9:00 ng gabi. Kumusta naman yun? Saan na yung bonding ng family
namin? Uber busy na kahit ung mga taong nakakasama ko sa bahay eh
namimiss ko na. Paano pa kaya yung mga taong malayo sa akin pero naging
bahagi ng buhay ko?? Si Mama, kahit nag-uusap kami via internet, kahit
na naririnig ko boses niya… namimiss ko pa rin siya kasi hindi ko
siya mayakap. Si ano…naaalala ko na naman, namimiss ko tuloy though alam kong dapat ko na siyang kalimutan. Nalulungkot ako.

Napakababaw ng buhay ko eh, yun ung nararamdaman ko. Ung tipong isang parte
lang ng buhay mo ung nabibigyan mo ng pagkakataon, ng oras. Paano naman
ung kalahating parte?? Magwowork ka ba kung ung magkabilang bahagi
hindi sabay na gumagana?? Isipin mo nga.

Ma, gusto ko na pumunta
sa LOndon. Gusto ko na ulit magsama-sama tayo nina Papa. Ngayon ko lang
nararamdaman ung hirap ng may isang magulang. Ang hirap ng wala ka. May
kulang talaga eh… Hindi ako mabuo-buo. Sana magfastforward na lang
ang lahat para nman mabawasan ang sakit sa puso ko….

Namimiss ko na kayo…. [Kilala ni God  kung sino talaga namimiss ko! wakokokok...]

When things go fucked up, I get soooo lonely. Just like now…I am missing my mom…
Just so sad. You know, I am someone who cries easily. Oo, crybaby talaga ako. I never really cry that often pero pag umiyak ako hagulgol. Tulad na lang nung isang umaga, pagkagising ko, pagmulat ng mata ko, umiyak na lang ako!! Winner lang!!! I’d rather cry alone and smile afterwards in front of my friends kasi sabi nga mas madaling ngumiti kesa sumimangot at magpaliwanag kung bakit ka malungkot. Effort naman kasi…

Acads piss me off, in a bit idle way. I made my choice to focus on acads first, that I already thought of a whole sem minding not even my "other-life-slash-love-life". Sheess… But why am I bored? God, a few weeks in school killed me like hell. I need life dude. Am i to survive this?? I’m not used in this kind set-up for I thought I’ve been thru this during my high school and first year college. For I thought I’ve passed my GCness stage but hell no, it’s as if I am going back to old days. Hello old-me?!? No to long-hour tambays and chikas…

Argh,

I need something or rather someone that will/who inspire me.. Chos!! In a matter of shortest word, that’s what I really mean. hehehe You know sometimes, beating around the bush makes the trick. But yeah, I am looking for something different. All work and no play makes a person dull. You believe that?

I’m excited to have a pair of uniform. For two years , I haven’t worn anything except tees and pants. For a change then, we’ll have our chef’s uniform.. How’s that? Yeehihhihi. Kinda scared for the upcoming functions… Really… [American,European, Philippines and Asian]. All those four functions will be handled by us. Too tedious but exciting, eh??! And oh, I was assigned to be the Executive Chef of our group. *heart beats faster* To be called as such means a huge responsibility. I am not a hustler when it comes to cooking. No. No. No. But I am willing to study and practice the recipe though. Thank God dad’s here to help me. He knows a lot when it comes to Filipino cooking. Hopefully I’ll retain them on my mind and heart.. nyeks…

HRIM 105 aka beverage management is currently my fave subject. It’s cool. The cabernet sauvignon, pinot chardonnay, mis en place... hehehe new terms I learned.We’re talking about wines, alcohol, beers, ales, etc… My basic french knowledge helps me a bit coz french actually is the universal language of food service industry.

Speaking of French, how I wish I have taken up french10 instead of italian 10. I should have continued my french. But due to time constraints, only italian10 fit in my sched. GRrr… I thought it’s similar with french. But it’s way way different and it’s sooooo mind and tounge-twisting… Duh, intonations of italian??? Bizarre!!

Aside from functions, HRIM department added new program to be complied by no other than 3rd year students [and that's us]! It’s called PFPD… To hell with the meaning dude, I forgot it! It’s a partnership with our school and Jollibee, Figaro and Shakey’s. They said we”ll be the managers of these establishments after we finished this program.. sabi nila.. Manager at 20?? ME? Sounds cool though. Whew!

4 Functions +  30-hour Tearoom affiliation + 240-hour PFPD affiliation = no life!

Kumusta naman ang weekend ko?!! Work with no compensation?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Sana buhay pa ako. Kaya nga kelangan ko ng inspirasyon d b??! Sabi ko na eh..hehehehe

bwahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

Sana may cute akong makilala sa FIGARO…nyahahaha…..

Kung sino ka man, lumabas ka na!!!!!!

*bangag na ako*

Miss ko na friends ko. Miss ko na si mama.
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For once, I wanna be the reason why he cuts his hair just because I told him so. The reason why he eats something just because it’s my favorite food. The reason why he buys a shirt just because I have the same color. The reason why he falls asleep while holding his phone at night. The reason why he loves something he used to hate because I love it. And lastly, wanna be the reason why he smile and laugh. I wanna be the because of his Why’s. Whoever he is.

I want to find another man. Not the one whom I used to love. Not him who doesn’t know how to value my feelings, not him who always hurts me, and lastly, not him who doesn’t know how to be faithful.  Don’t want to be sad anymore. I want to find that someone who will love me truly.

I’m watching The Notebook, hayst! Nasesenti na naman ako. Nalulungkot lang talaga ako. 

I’m loving Jason’s music which is an acoustic pop rock. Love his songs..♥♥♥ Almost everything’s my fave. At this moment, I’m enjoying his current single I’m Yours. It’s so cute to hear. Yeah, and I really I use cute to describe it! His voice just fits in his music  and thus gives justice to it. I soo love Jason Mraz as much as I love David Cook. They both rock. \m/ Speaking of David cook, I have just downloaded his own version of I don’t wanna miss a thing. Uh, can’t get enough of it! If they both come here (in Philippines), I surely will watch ‘em. Should not miss any of them dude.

You can visit Jason Mraz’s website. It’s as cute as he is. http://www.jasonmraz.com

My favorite stanza is this…

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you’re free
look into your heart and you’ll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe seen with me
Ah, la peaceful melodie
It’s your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

hehehe.. wala lang!!

Perhaps, this is something unusual for me. Yep, I don’t really answer surveys for they consume huge hours to finish and I have no patience in answering long-to-never-ending questions… Some surveys have gone up to hundreds of questions. Men, that should ONLY be for Computer freaks who stay up late in front of the PC. But in a moment, I decide to answer one survey. Hope this will work for me *cross fingers*… Without further ado, I start it here…

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~ But of course! That should not be asked. I love food!

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if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln41′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

~ None yet. None so far.

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curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln43′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln44′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln45′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

~ No, coz I want to be [can't think of any name]. Bleh Just not Justin…ok?

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curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
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if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln47′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
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if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
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var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln48′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln49′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln50′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln51′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln52′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln53′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln54′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln55′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln56′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln57′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln58′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln59′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln60′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln61′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln62′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln63′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln64′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln65′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln66′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln67′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln68′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln69′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln70′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln71′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln72′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln73′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln74′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln75′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln76′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
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var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln77′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

var curDiv = document.getElementById(’ln78′);
curDiv.innerHTML = convert2url(curDiv.innerHTML);
var links = curDiv.getElementsByTagName(’a');
for(var i = links.length; i >= 0; –i) {
if(links[i]) links[i].innerHTML = links[i].innerHTML.substr(0,30) + “…”;
}

Bailey’s Float.. have you heard of it before?? Wanna try it!! I’m looking forward for a fun-fun 1st semester starting June. Really! I’m so excited to take Beverage Management for I want to taste different bevs, be it alcoholic or not. Thanks to Ate Anna for posting Bailey’s Float recipe. Seems good to try. I’ll buy one bottle and will do the mixing by myself. C’mon, exploring new things…

I think I should start saving money to buy my own flairing bottle as early as now for it costs at around P1, 300. A bit expensive. Not just that, I need to have a chef’s uniform and to buy white blouses, slacks and of course black working shoes with heels. It brings hole in my pocket, dude. But I’m really excited to start my ’series’ days for I heard it’s hard, exhausting, draining but a whole lot of fun! 

For Bailey’s float recipe, here it is:

1 oz. Bailey’s Irish Cream
10 oz Rootbeer
Ice

Fill glass with ice.
Add Bailey’s and Rootbeer.
Stir.
Serve.

Ate Anna told me that one shot glass is already equal to 1 ounce. Whew, cool! That’s what she learned from HRIM 105. sheessh.
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Had a very good day with my fellow officers today. We went to Kuya Erin’s house to amend the existing constitution of UP SHARP. Had laughed sooooooooo hard, thank God, I didn’t fart. Wahahaha.. though I ate camotecue, lots of camote… whahahaha!!! Seemed to have a hang-over of that tripping, can’t get over with it! Read ate anna’s post..nyehehehe
http://bannanaaa.multiply.com/journal/item/141

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David Cook won! Wooooohooo!! I ssooooooo love him. He has a great voice *praise*. Oh well, I’m one of the million people who admire him. He deserves to win. Go david! Your voice just melts my heart.. Forgive me for being so cheesy sometimes. It just happens once in a blue moon. Believe me.

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Wanna share this poem. Em posted this on her blog. Found this one cute…Enjoy reading

The guy who loves you,
can’t tell you the reason why he loves you.
He only knows that in his eyes,
you are the only one.

The guy who loves you,
actually always makes you mad,
but he does not know what a stupid thing he has done,
as everything he does, is for your own good.

The guy who loves you,
seldom praises you
but in his heart,
you are the best, only he knows it,

The guy who loves you, will scold you or
complain if you didn’t reply to his message,
because he cares.

The guy who loves you,
Only drops his tears in front of you,
when you try to wipe his tears,
you are touching his heart,
the heart which beats for you.

The guy who loves you,
will remember every word u said,
even if it’s accidentally.
and he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who loves you,
will not give any promise that easily,
because he doesn’t want to break the promise,
he wants you to believe him
and he wants to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who loves you,
always tells you not to think too much,
because he already planned it for you,
he wants to give u the best life in the future,
he wants to give you a surprise,
believe him that he can do it.

The guy who loves you,
maybe can’t remember special occasions like some kind of anniversary,
but, he does know that,
every second he lives,
he’s loving you,
no matter what day is today

The guy who loves you,
won’t say " i love you" that easily,
because everything he did for you is showing that he loves you already,
but only he will tell the word at a special situation

The guy who really loves you,
will feel that, sometimes, he has to tell you something for only once,
because he thinks that u might already understand him,
if he talks so much, he will feel that there’s nothing you will cherish.

The guy who loves you,
will go to the airport to fetch you,
he won’t carry a bunch of roses and call you darling like what you expect.
but he will carry your luggage and ask you "why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.

The boy who loves you,
will listen quietly to you when you are mad,
and when you finished,
he will say, "you still got class tomorrow, sleep early." with a smile.

The boy who loves you,
always calls you little girl,
but every time he wants to make a big decision,
he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who loves you,
doesn’t like little toy like teddy bears,
but he will always put the bear you
gave him at his bed.

The guy who loves you,
while quarrelling will apologize uncontrollably,
although you are the one who’s wrong,
and later, he will send a message to you with
" baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it yourself "

The guy who loves you,
will really miss you,
want to buy a bunch of roses
and wait for you stupidly under your apartment.
but he never knows, what he bought is daisy,
but it doesn’t matter,
because in his heart,
that’s roses.

The guy who loves you,
seldom says sweet words,
but you know,
his kisses already transfer all his passion to you.

The guy who loves you ,
if he can’t always see you,
he will try to make himself busy,
for not to have any time to remember you,
because he knows,
if he did,
he will keep on missing you until
he could do nothing…