Absinthe

Kahit na wala na akong oras sa ibang mga bagay, kahit na sobrang busy
ko na sa skul, sa work, sa org, sa lahat…. may mga moments talaga na
napapatahimik ako sabay malulungkot. Naiisip ko lang, kahit na
tuluy-tuloy ang takbo ng buhay ko, kahit na nagagawa ko yung mga bagay
na makakatulong sa akin maabot yung goals ko, may kulang. Hindi pa rin
buo ang buhay ko. Nalulungkot ako, sa totoo lang, kasi ang dami kong
taong naaalala, naiisip at namimiss. Oo namimiss… Kahit
na kasama ko nga sa bahay sina papa, at yung dalawa kong kapatid, hindi
ko naman sila madalas makita! Aalis ako ng 6:00 ng umaga tapos uuwi ako
ng 9:00 ng gabi. Kumusta naman yun? Saan na yung bonding ng family
namin? Uber busy na kahit ung mga taong nakakasama ko sa bahay eh
namimiss ko na. Paano pa kaya yung mga taong malayo sa akin pero naging
bahagi ng buhay ko?? Si Mama, kahit nag-uusap kami via internet, kahit
na naririnig ko boses niya… namimiss ko pa rin siya kasi hindi ko
siya mayakap. Si ano…naaalala ko na naman, namimiss ko tuloy though alam kong dapat ko na siyang kalimutan. Nalulungkot ako.

Napakababaw ng buhay ko eh, yun ung nararamdaman ko. Ung tipong isang parte
lang ng buhay mo ung nabibigyan mo ng pagkakataon, ng oras. Paano naman
ung kalahating parte?? Magwowork ka ba kung ung magkabilang bahagi
hindi sabay na gumagana?? Isipin mo nga.

Ma, gusto ko na pumunta
sa LOndon. Gusto ko na ulit magsama-sama tayo nina Papa. Ngayon ko lang
nararamdaman ung hirap ng may isang magulang. Ang hirap ng wala ka. May
kulang talaga eh… Hindi ako mabuo-buo. Sana magfastforward na lang
ang lahat para nman mabawasan ang sakit sa puso ko….

Namimiss ko na kayo…. [Kilala ni God  kung sino talaga namimiss ko! wakokokok...]

When things go fucked up, I get soooo lonely. Just like now…I am missing my mom…
Just so sad. You know, I am someone who cries easily. Oo, crybaby talaga ako. I never really cry that often pero pag umiyak ako hagulgol. Tulad na lang nung isang umaga, pagkagising ko, pagmulat ng mata ko, umiyak na lang ako!! Winner lang!!! I’d rather cry alone and smile afterwards in front of my friends kasi sabi nga mas madaling ngumiti kesa sumimangot at magpaliwanag kung bakit ka malungkot. Effort naman kasi…

Acads piss me off, in a bit idle way. I made my choice to focus on acads first, that I already thought of a whole sem minding not even my "other-life-slash-love-life". Sheess… But why am I bored? God, a few weeks in school killed me like hell. I need life dude. Am i to survive this?? I’m not used in this kind set-up for I thought I’ve been thru this during my high school and first year college. For I thought I’ve passed my GCness stage but hell no, it’s as if I am going back to old days. Hello old-me?!? No to long-hour tambays and chikas…

Argh,

I need something or rather someone that will/who inspire me.. Chos!! In a matter of shortest word, that’s what I really mean. hehehe You know sometimes, beating around the bush makes the trick. But yeah, I am looking for something different. All work and no play makes a person dull. You believe that?

I’m excited to have a pair of uniform. For two years , I haven’t worn anything except tees and pants. For a change then, we’ll have our chef’s uniform.. How’s that? Yeehihhihi. Kinda scared for the upcoming functions… Really… [American,European, Philippines and Asian]. All those four functions will be handled by us. Too tedious but exciting, eh??! And oh, I was assigned to be the Executive Chef of our group. *heart beats faster* To be called as such means a huge responsibility. I am not a hustler when it comes to cooking. No. No. No. But I am willing to study and practice the recipe though. Thank God dad’s here to help me. He knows a lot when it comes to Filipino cooking. Hopefully I’ll retain them on my mind and heart.. nyeks…

HRIM 105 aka beverage management is currently my fave subject. It’s cool. The cabernet sauvignon, pinot chardonnay, mis en place... hehehe new terms I learned.We’re talking about wines, alcohol, beers, ales, etc… My basic french knowledge helps me a bit coz french actually is the universal language of food service industry.

Speaking of French, how I wish I have taken up french10 instead of italian 10. I should have continued my french. But due to time constraints, only italian10 fit in my sched. GRrr… I thought it’s similar with french. But it’s way way different and it’s sooooo mind and tounge-twisting… Duh, intonations of italian??? Bizarre!!

Aside from functions, HRIM department added new program to be complied by no other than 3rd year students [and that's us]! It’s called PFPD… To hell with the meaning dude, I forgot it! It’s a partnership with our school and Jollibee, Figaro and Shakey’s. They said we”ll be the managers of these establishments after we finished this program.. sabi nila.. Manager at 20?? ME? Sounds cool though. Whew!

4 Functions +  30-hour Tearoom affiliation + 240-hour PFPD affiliation = no life!

Kumusta naman ang weekend ko?!! Work with no compensation?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Sana buhay pa ako. Kaya nga kelangan ko ng inspirasyon d b??! Sabi ko na eh..hehehehe

bwahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!

Sana may cute akong makilala sa FIGARO…nyahahaha…..

Kung sino ka man, lumabas ka na!!!!!!

*bangag na ako*

Miss ko na friends ko. Miss ko na si mama.
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